thoughts#2

once upon a time

she used to laugh happily

and there was nothing for her to worry about

she had lots of friends and there were people to share her happiness

as time passed

she gone through a lots

and the happenings changed her

into a easily hurt and fragile her

it leads her to become a more silence and cold blooded person

to hide and protect herself from getting hurt

the relationship couldn't be trusted

so were the people that faking around

this is the adult world and was totally different with the previous world

she cares

but just the way she show her concern cannot be understood by others

and there was no one trying to understand her and get into her world

she have to walk out from the world that she used to familiar with

and she scares

she timid

it was a totally a strange world for her to enter

and she has no confident to survive in such a world

a reality world without protection

she emos

she hope that there were someone could sense her fears

and would spend times to get her along on the way she steps into the new world

she hope that she can met with someone that have the same thinking like her

and would always be there for her when she was in troubles or difficulties

and there were no one for her to depend to

to survive and adapt to this whole new world

she have to be tough and live with a strong heart

she think of her family in a sudden

and everytime she received calls from her family

she would be extra happy and get touched

no one will be better in this world compare with her own family member

they are the one who will totally compromise and tolerate with her

and support her no matter what she did

under her tough faces

there is still a fragile heart and she wouldn't easily show it to others

it was her last protection and she hope could defence it

few times she collapsed and exposed her easily hurted heart

and it was a bad experience to her

yet she persuade herself that she is unbeatable

and will live well in this world

so that people would not look down upon her

for those who treat her well she will repay back with her own way

and for those who offended her she will repay back twice too

these were the living priciple for her to survive in this world

and no one is to deny what she did as they are not qualified to do so

cause they are outside her world and have no rights to disturb her own surviving law

dont ever ask a person to walk out from her world as she already used to it

dont ever try to deny her and saying that she is stubborn to live in her own world

vice versa dont you ever think of to walk into her world and adapt to her

accept her

self identify her

and one day she will discover that her world is the same with others too