E.N.D

It has become a habit of mine to look for your daily update
everyday sitting infront the screen and just few clicks

I can see your happiness
I can see how you enjoy your life
your friends
your siblings

I am glad that you are happy
I am glad that you mix well with friends and workers around
I am glad that you have brother and sister that loves you and cares about you

looking at those funny picture of you
there are faces that I've never discovered before
your laughing face
your childish acting faces
your families picture

It's you
the one that love to smile and bring joy to people around
It's you
the one that always wearing orange colour shirt whenever you taking the pictures
a colour that indicates your outgoing and confident personality

there are thousands voices in my heart telling me that I should find ways to approach you again
but just now the moment I click into your profile
for a second I just thought of that I shouldn't interupt your peaceful and loving life again
everything seems perfect and you're enjoying your life
yet without me..

I should realized decades ago that I'm nothing to you
a fact that I never wanted to admit ever since
I keep hoping as you're the one who gives me hopes for times
but your reaction nowadays is giving me a proper sign
a sign that there are nothing else I can do to get to your attention

I'm not willing to interrupt you once again when think of your perfect life
I'm not willing to make your life imperfect with my continuous interruption

just wish the best for you seeing you living happily and healthy
its time for an end for my suffering as for yours
from now on I promise you that you will never hear even a word from me
and I am not going to catch your attention anymore

Its the end..
although I never want it to be
but at the time I started to miss you
please allow me  to have few clicks and view your happiness shown in your friend's profile
then its enough for me and i beat you'll never know that I still can find ways to access to your profile although you've deleted me and put your status all in private

As for you,I'm never exist..
ignore me as usual..

Friday 23/03/2012
0909pm