25th August

Tomorrow will be my last day stay at KL
take the night train around 720pm heading back to Kampar
quite unwilling to go back so soon as I just stayed here for just one week long

As usual, day before I leave KL
I did the stupid act again..
drove my car aimlessly on the road all along KL and Rawang
and I headed to Selayangjust to pass by your shop and have brief look into it
hoping to have the chance I could spot you,even for just a second
second day I fall sick and in dizzy mood I still persist with this stupid act
turn on the radio loud and keep speeding on the road is such an enjoyable moment
last time maybe...this would be the last time I do so
I don't wish to keep becoming an idiot..no more

First paper falls on 11 September
and its time to start my revision
brought back some notes for two subjects
and I never do my revision seriously as I stay at KL
hence Kampar will be the best place for me to start revision

Next week will be week 14 for current semester's study
and till now I still can't get access to the coursework marks for all subjects
I am so desperate to know how much I get for the coursework
so that I could know whether there's improvement on my study

Felt that days that I stayed at KL is kind of  in holiday mood
even my final exam hasn't started yet I am already in holiday mood
can't imagine the life when I get back tomorrow and start facing the notes
and there end my early came holiday mood

Wish I can do well in my final exam
and another mission for me to complete when I back to Kampar
my loss weight programme
really mean it..

Received quite a lot of comments every time I come back to KL
even go to food stalls that I used to visit since my kid times
and the stall owner recognize me
the first word they ask was: you are still studying? wah, seems like you are having an enjoying life hor? looks fatter than last time neh..
then I will give them a smile, awkwardly..
almost everyone that know me will keep expressing their shock feeling when looking at me

Sigh...I admit that since 2010 till now I've gain almost 10 kilos and even worst is 12 kilos
from the slim and standard 52 kilos in 2009 to nowadays my weight can reach 66 kilos..
even me myself also feel unbelievable!!
people loss appetite when face with pressure while my situation works another way
felt horrible too when look at myself in the mirror@@

Hence I have to change my eating habit..
till 22th September the day I finish my last paper and back to KL again..
I wish my effort for this one month period I stay in Kampar can help to reduce my weight
please!!I am enough of being asked and concerned by others because of my weight gained..
hahahahaha..hope that this time my effort really works lah^^

all the best to both my study plan and weight lossing plan~~
stay happy..