2013/09/03

想法。事實。成功


上了大學后,我才知道什麽是直銷
從來都沒接觸過所謂的直銷事業
單純的大概知道direct sales這職業
不就是售貨員嘛,而且是有Target那種


去年上網認識了一個人
我就純粹爲了打發時間找個人聊聊
後來不知怎麼的會交換了電話
而幾個月後的某一天收到他的信息求幫忙
說什麼參加了化妝班,畢業那晚需要找人做模特給他畫
反正在家無聊就OK咯

反正跟不認識的人出門見面我早已習慣,沒什麼
那晚,他來載我。車上還有一位女生
一路上塞車,簡單介紹后我們就聊了起來
其實,第一次見面我自然會有戒心。
閒聊不久他們開始一問一答了
說很欽佩某某姐,活的很成功
從什麽都不會的主婦到現在自信滿滿,有見識。
是他們的偶像。一大堆的啦。
然後那男生就說道,有個朋友爲了去看演唱會花了幾百塊
問我會不會誇張?我是否能接受這樣
當然,我會說浪費錢啦。不值得
其實,那一刻我已感覺不妥。
是在探聽我的消費觀嗎?
其後,一直跟我說人生目標。
要出人頭地嗎?要成功嗎?
算吧,就隨便給個答案咯。
心想,第一次見面就問人生目標,很奇怪耶

之後省略啦。。
其實那時真的純粹是化妝班。沒想過有什麽的
第二次,就邀我去參觀他們的新中心
上次那間是舊的,現在搬新的很美很壯觀。
ok咯,去咯。見識下嘛
然後到了。進到去才知道有talk.
看到有banner寫著Amway.
其實,我真的不懂Amway是什麽
然後就很多掌聲,有人上臺演講。
說些什麽我忘了。

後來回家問媽媽,才知道原來是直銷公司。
還是很多年歷史的了
媽媽勸我說,別參他們,整天去聽那些talk。
我說,就去下嘛聽下見識下。
其實每一次的talk都在灌輸成功的道理。
就算是健康的talk還是回link去產品那裡
給talk的人說道他們幾出名還科學家醫生的。
我愛聽那些talk因為很幽默。但我不認同演講者的說法。
尤其是那些大道理:六六大順
健康,財富,自由,家庭。。。。blah blah blah.
說什麼加入大家庭就如有個聚寶盆在手,要什麽有什麽。
當然,剛開始會很辛苦,要付出
然後你上到位了,成功了,就可以享受了
然後就搬出那誘人的數字。
某某某年收入多少。駕大車。到處旅行。免費的。多好多自由

心底在想,那麼容易嗎?
發展了那麼多下線,難道你就可以坐在那裡收錢嗎?
你還是要親自去維持Maintain你的Line的業績啊
你是駕大車,但卻得到處跑聯絡感情維繫下線的聯絡。
自由嗎?你成功了,卻更加沒有時間了。
說了是direct sales.Sales 就是要這裡跑哪裡跑的啊
而且你的時間還更加被鎖緊。連自己私人時間都沒有。
一通電話來,你就要去應酬了。

最不喜歡就是一句:
早上外邊下著雨,天氣很好。
上班族被逼要出門上班去
我可以睡到自然醒。多自在
那一句自然醒是多麼的刺耳。
還說每天都像假期,連真正的假期到了也不懂。

還有,他們說這是一個幫助人的事業
讓每個人都有機會成功。獲得自由,獲得健康。給人希望
而且這裡是個大家庭,大家都是兄弟姐妹,很溫馨,可以互相幫忙
聽這些talk就算了。反正就聽下研究下啊。
但有時候演講者說話真的沒經過大腦
因為創辦人是讀書不多的,所以一直拿他的立案來說
家裡窮,賣榴槤,從事30多行散工。
不會英文,沒知識,因為堅持,所以成功。
他還說:你讀那麼多書,沒用的,我沒有學歷也這麼成功,不要讀了。
是的,他是在開玩笑,卻覺得話中有刺。

每一次的talk都在強調同樣的東西。
成功。成功。成功。
還自打嘴巴,說別人老是說,進Amway會被洗腦,沒這回事,偶爾洗下會更清醒

我個人認為沒有洗腦這回事
只是一個詞。
你有自己的思想,你會思考,會想
人家說什麼,自己要分析。不要盲目認同跟隨

他們常說,成功的人已經成功了。
他們把成功的經驗分享給你們,你們只需跟著做就會成功了。
兩條路,一條別人走過,光明大道,一條長滿雜草,你選哪條?當然跟著人走
我就不認同。路是人走出來的,每個人都是不同的個體,路也不同。
我的名言:I will just walk my lonely path.
我就是不喜歡做跟別人同樣的東西,不愛跟隨大隊。
有時候,走自己的路,看自己喜歡的風景,享受那路途,有錯嗎?
感覺更好。何必勉強自己走一條不屬於自己的路呢?

領導人常說,要跟隨。要學習。要改變。
就算你內向,你不會說話,你害怕
只要肯參與,跟隨,一定會有改變。還拿了很多例子的改變
那該死的的改變聽得我火冒三丈!
沒聽過3歲定80嗎?沒聽過江山易改本性難移嗎?
人的性格,都是天生的。
不是說改變不到,任你怎麼改變,你變了,心底你依舊保有原本的性格。
只不過你把它深埋心底,把他人認定的好性格表現出來而已。
何必那麼辛苦,勉強自己把屬於自己的性格埋沒,去追求不是自己style的呢?
Just be yourself~~

每次聽同樣的東西,很膩。而且很不忿。
你說這是助人的事業,給人希望。
我卻覺得這是沒良心的事業
爲了上位,你必須踩著別人的屍體。
所謂的直銷,不是賣東西那麼簡單。
你賣給人,達到業績,抽傭--->第一賺
你賣東西給人,東西比平常貴幾倍---->第二賺
事實是,爲什麽東西那麼貴?因為是直銷,經過很多手,每一手要抽,要賺。
那價錢,已包括了不知多少手的傭金抽費了。
那筆費用就是消費者在承擔。無形的。看不到的
你達標了,那筆傭金,其實一部份是來自你自己身上。
羊毛出在羊身上。你加入了,你也得花費買產品。
有時爲了達標,爲了抽傭,你就自費買了一些其實不是很需要的東西。
你花錢買,然後再抽自己消費的傭金。不是多此一舉嗎?

我倒覺得加入Amway是不值得的。
一來,你不算Amway正式員工,你只是經銷商。
領導人每次強調,加入Amway你就是老闆,自己組生意,跟Amway拿貨。不是打工仔
我想,老闆?真的哪麼容易做老闆嗎?真正的老闆就是Amway的CEO股東們。
每年分利,有你份嗎?
二來,加入Amway你不是員工,享有不到員工該有的福利。
EPF Socso 年假病假。甚至,Amway不需發薪水給你。
誰在賺?又是Amway公司,不是我們。他還省回了基本的Salary pymt.
三來,你幫Amway賣產品。而且Amway的店不多,不是到處可以見到。要跑到老遠去拿貨
而且,這裡,Amway又省回了店面的租金水電請員工開銷。誰賺?你嗎?
這就是爲什麽Amway要維持經銷商這職位
You're just distributor but not the formal workers of the company.
其實Amway高層很聰敏。Since you're not the workers of company, anything happened during the period of business conducted within you and your customers are not the responsible of the company.
這一條免責聲明完全斷絕了直銷商與公司的關係。公司一概不負責任。
多好,連法律責任也免了。出事了你一個人扛。
最厲害的是,Amway從未正式承認他的MLM Status.
這種猶如金字塔式的經銷方式,他們哪會承認?
他會說,我們讓經銷商去銷售散佈貨品,如何發展下線不再我們公司管轄範圍內。
他們也不會direct去招Distributors.而是由很多不同的私人團體,招會員加入。
加入時,你會發現,團體里很多活動,猶如Social society. 表面給人學烹飪,學化妝。
其實到最後還不是Link到去Amway。
因為類似MLM的方式是犯法的,很多活動都不能公開舉辦。
團體里的talk還要購票才能入場。說是爲了限制名額,先到先得。
其實就爲了容易辨別出你是否屬於團體裡的,還要有人介紹才能進入。
如果真的合法,為何不在報紙刊登talk 的詳情?
這樣也可以吸引到更多人的注意,找人加入不就更加容易嗎?
或者,你建立多一些店鋪,如cosway般至少比amway店還容易找。
方便客戶不好嗎?因為屬於MLM所以店建多了,customer就會自己去買。
那distributor 賺什麽?

我參他們不久后也加入了會員。
其實,我只是好奇想體驗下。
加入前我問了,我怕加入后有target要achieve
我又怕達不到target會被罵會連累別人
他跟我說,這生意是你自己的
有沒有target也看你自己。
你要做就做,你不要也不能逼你。
Ok..Deal. I'm in..just have a try.
然後呢。是的,沒target。
但久不久就會邀你出來聽下新產品。
然後有時又說總公司有talk有meeting一起去。
去到了,就順其自然帶你到店裡走走。
你走下走下也自然會買。
這些就是無形的壓力。他不會正面逼你
但那種嘮叨不絕說新產品,幾好幾好,一定要試
然後免費身體檢查,報告出來就說你缺少某某某要補回
你能拒絕嗎?我不夠堅決,不好意思拒絕,就買咯
算咯,試下咯。

問題是,產品買了回來。卻吃不下。
真的覺得他們很誇張。一次吞20多粒藥丸,更厲害是整六,七十粒。
我買了Vit B, C,魚油,鈣質,DoubleX。一餐要吃7粒。Siao eh!!
吃了一次我就吐了,吃不下。那味道是如此嗆鼻。
醬子吃的話,吞藥丸就飽了。還用吃飯的嗎?
罐子標明,Vit C 一天吃4粒。它的分量是500mg/tablet. 4粒不就2000mg了嗎?
我記得中學讀Science學過,Vit C是水溶性的。而上網check一個人每天所需的攝取量只是90mg而已。
你吃那么多,超过了正常所需,多余的就随水分排出体外了啊。不是浪费吗?
Overdose of Vitamin C intake also bring side effect to our body and organ.
我很佩服那些一天吞整70粒药丸的人,到底是不是真的?
太多的药丸,就算那药丸多么natural多么organic都好,你的肾脏负荷得了吗?
我倒觉得会肾脏衰竭呢。要过滤那么多的外来物。

这是多么不负责任的经销啊。
为了讓產品好賣,就叫人吃多多。說對身體好。
我反而覺得,我從不吃保健品營養品身體還健康還好呢
反觀他們整天靠吃這些補助品,還時不時生病。
最好笑的是,那位某某姐,眾人的偶像那位
出外吃飯跟我說一句話:女人啊,最好不要吃青蘋果會刺激子宮對身體不好
青蘋果是男人吃的,對他們比較好,女人就吃多點紅蘋果。
聽到那一刻,笑死我了。想反駁她的,想下,嗯,算了。跟她講都多餘
An apple a day, doctor stays away. 不要吃青蘋果? LOL.

最最最不屑的是,他們說醫生只會醫病,不懂保健之道。
還說醫生對營養品的見識不多,所以她們不會介紹你吃保養品。
我呸~人家醫生讀那麼多年書,專科知識,營養學什麽的都讀過,不懂?
而你這些連中學都沒畢業的就信口開河,人云亦云。很可笑。
為她而覺得悲哀。自以為是的傢伙。竟然敢批評醫生?哈哈
最討厭不懂裝懂的人,沒聽過沉默是金嗎?不會就不要開口,笑話自己。

你跟我說大道理,OK,行,我會聽,但會自己思考再接受。
很多Amway人說的道理,其實都是歪理。你不能一味認同附和啊
就像,自由,健康,堅持就成功,跟隨。。。這些詞。凡事都有兩面,不是你這樣說就行得通的。

為新認識的那些朋友們感到可惜,悲哀。
你一味的跟隨,崇拜,卻沒認真想過,你適合嗎?
每個人都有自己的路。而這一條成功之路,你的付出不值得如此回報。
想想,你們去找人加入,花的時間,車油,放工后匆忙去聽talk搞event。你自由嗎?
ok.你做到15%。抽傭了。扣除你所花的付出的,剩下多少?
不能只看表面。以為那筆傭金很吸引很多。扣了扣了,真正剩下的是什麽?

時間青春是無價的。
要成功,你不如upgrade自己。
讀多點書,見識多一點,不要給人牽著鼻子走。
所謂的大家庭,只不過是他們製作出來的現象,為的就是留住你們
每次都搞什麽活動,去哪裡玩,一大班的。
你身邊的人,全都是Amway的人,你就被鎖在Amway的圈子,聽的都是Amway的事
你每天只會想成功,想我一定行的。大家相互勉勵。
兄弟姐妹?放屁。連感情很好的朋友都會背叛自己,你跟我說像兄弟姐妹?
其實,裡邊每個人都是爲了自己的利益。世界是如此,沒有例外。
就算成功了上位了去免費旅行了,你還是在Amway的圈子里。任公司魚肉。

成功,有很多方法。
最實際的成功,就是靠自己的學歷知識去成功。
對得起自己,也對得起別人。
而且,成功不是說駕大車住大房很有錢。
心靈上的富裕,對世間的善惡分明,平安健康,有個快樂家庭--->你也可以很成功
我沒有說我很厲害,只是,思想真的很重要。
我要自由,就靠自己,存一筆錢,自己去法國,體驗異國風情,不需活在Amway陰影下。連吃個飯都跟Amway有關。閑掉..ZZzzz

外邊的世界很大很廣
You deserved a wider view and life circle rather than all just about Amway..





2013/08/27

The End


Finally it comes to the end.
My four years life spent in Kampar is coming to the end. Hurray!
Finished the FYP and also the VIVA presentation.
Well, perhaps not the best shot, but just did my best.

Left two more papers then I'm free from this town!
Somehow, I missed all the time spent here.
There's unpleasant memories which hurt so much yet I prefer those time I spent here alone.
On and off class. Taking bus driving through this small town on same route with same scene.
Taking bikes and enjoy the morning ride with fresh morning breeze. Green trees. Blue skies. Wide lakes.
Amazing mountains view all around this town with birds warbling all the time.

It's quite an enjoyable and relax life here which I'll never found in hometown KL.
And all has come to the end. Working life is awaiting which stress people out.
Nothing much I can do but just to reminisce all those memorable time.
Learnt the lesson's of pain and gain, and you definitely grown a lot when living these four years life here.

Give myself some targets to achieve in future.
I'll work hard and move my steps closer to my dream.
A target, to make my life motivated and to distract me from keep thinking the negatives.
I want to live better and definitely I will live better without you.
You are just a piece of shit that made my life miserable and I want to get rid of you.
A target, once I achieved it will prove my strength and the moment I achieved, the bad ones will gone together and I'm free to live a new life.
A target, will be my breakthrough to the brand new life of mine.

Just work hard and focus.
I will be there in no time.
Sooner.

Jiayou
And good luck to myself in following exams
:)

2013/06/23

Happy. Selfish. Kindness


It has been a long time I didn't update my blog already..
finally it's my last semester staying in Kampar and October I'm gonna come back to KL for my internship.
time flies..and I'm glad my hard work during past semester pay..
under my hard work and persistence, I pass all subjects for pass two semester.

At the moment the result was released, I was damn so anxious scaring that I might fail the hard subject
I am so happy that for this one and only one semester, I pass my Accounting subject- Managerial Accounting without need to resit for another time.
unlike previously I always failed my FAF1& 2 and need to repeat both again. it was just like a curse for me that I always fail accounting paper but not this time!!!hahahahaha..finally I managed to break the curse..hurray

And during these time, I learned  a lot and become more matured in thinking.
Sometimes you really need to let go in order to live a better life.
and I feel so happy and relax recently..
no more sad feeling and hatred feeling towards her..
I love my life for now..life without them that I can do whatever I want where I need not to care so much about them and think for them..

Found that I love freedom so much and I don't need someone that will limit my freedom and choices.
I can decide myself where I want to go, what time for class and what to eat without need to follow and adjust my choices to please and convenient them.
its all just about me..

Perhaps you can label me as selfish person, but I'm more to a kind person and this kindness always exceed my selfish thinking and made me a very kind and careful person that I am willing to ignore my own desires and go for other's advantages.
now that I'm enough for my kindness shown and time to live for myself.
This is not selfish, as you act more selfish than me.

Lessons learned from them :
Never treat people with 100% true heart and when you started to care about others, you are a loser!!
this is the rule to survive in this cruelty world and you have to learn to protect yourself from being hurt badly by the one you care so much.

Thank you for the life  lesson and I found it useful when I decide to leave the gang and started to live for myself.
In three more months time, I will be leaving this small town that once I had so much memories here but now those are sad memories of mine.
Few days before having lunch at campus and group of Psychology student conducting their study survey asked me : What is happiness?
am I happy? yes, I am. As I am able to do whatever I want to do, I have food to eat, I have clothes to wear and I live healthly without any disease.
Groups of friend to share my happiness? No, I don't need it as once I tried to share all my happiness and sad things with them and what I get is a blame and end of friendship.
No one is willing to listen to true heart talks of yours and don't be such naive believing they will take serious what you said.
Not every selfish people have the kind heart of mine that willing to overcome the selfish feeling and be good to others. No one.

I'm sick of my kindness and even I tried so hard, I still can't get rid of it.
Kindness kill me and it torture me and made me suffer from the responsibility that do not belongs to me.
Among group of selfish person, you can't be one of them or else no one will take the responsibility as each person also think for their own self. Works couldn't be done in that situation.
So, I am selfish, but not as selfish as yours. Why can't I be as like you? I don't know. Although I wish to.

This is a complicated feeling.
I don't know. I have really no idea on this.
End topic.




2013/01/10

Growth. and please be tougher

Finally the result released.. and I'm glad that I pass all the papers.
thanks god that I can get rid off the stupid accounting paper after this..
damn so happy.

7 more days to my 23th birthday.
and my best friend during secondary study dated me out to have an early celebration with me.
I am so happy after get to know both of them willing to have an  early celebration with me as they scared
I will get back to Kampar before my birthday..I appreciate it much..
can't wait  for tomolo night's meeting up with them.

Honestly.totally never been celebrating me birthday before this.
the most impressive memory is that during my form 6 time whole class sang a birthday song for me in class and get a super big handmade birthday card from them.
after getting into university.. 2 years together with them, I am sorry to say that, they never have a birthday celebration with me.
Everytime I am always the one who keep caring about others feeling
and I worked so hard to make everyone happy.
I don't care I spent a lot for the birthday preparation.
I don't care I postpone my date to go back hometown just to celebrate their birthday.
I don't care those hard work I did for the surprises .

But in their eyes my birthday was nothing special.
cause my birthday was always the 1st day of school opening day. and they will not come back that early.
hence no celebration for me.
I am a very simple person. I don't need a cake. I don't need expensive gift.
what I wanted most is just some simple dinning together and true heart talk together.
That would be just enough..
I can't feel your sincere heart. and after what you did and told me last time.
I was so regret that I am that naive to give you my true heart and expect you treat me the same.
Instead, things goes the other way.
Friends? after those poisonous word from you? after the untolerance from you?
I really couldn't stop dropping tears everytime thinking of them.
and I will never forget this precious life lesson given by them.

I don't have much friends.
and I am glad that even so, I still have true friends around.
true friends like them. and I wish our friendship really could last forever.

Recently am actively exploring new friend circle thru web.
and there are one guy who claimed that he's a financial planner with the age of 29.
I doubted that, as a matured professional will not directly ask me to be his gf after 1st conversation.
the world is just so weird with different kind of people.
he dated me out today and after considering so long I didnt attend.
just now he called and said that he waited me for so long and I didnt appear.
should I believe him? he date me out at 230pm but nearing 6 o'clock only he called and ask me.
will it be possible he waited there for such long for a girl that he never met before? hmm..
actually I'm  scared too for going out with a stranger guy alone.
not everytime I will be such lucky can meet with good person..and I not dare to take the risk again.
from the conversation I discovered that he is not that simple as I thought.

Be cautious please..
even I am desperate to find a person to start a relationship. but he definitely will not be the one.
I don't wish my first love start in this way. just too childish and unsecured.
even he with his super sweet words..but I will not fall for these.
and I feel that those words from him made me so uncomfortable.
dear..darling..sweet heart...life partner some more..LOL
creepy!! and really feel so cold for what he called me..
haiss..this is life..you have to go thru many things so that you can get a clearer vision.
and I am still young and unmatured in this manner. there are still a lot for me  to learn

getting so sick recently..sore throat..bad cough..light fever..running nose.even headache severely.
please recover soon...I am enough of it!!
must take good care of myself as school opening soon.

dear me..be tough please..
wish this will be a nice year for me.
and that all my dream will come true.
:0

2013/01/05

心声


新的一年來臨
倒数12天就是我23岁的生日了
时光真的不留人一转眼就这样过去了
感觉自己总在虚度光阴白白浪费了那么多的时间却也一事无成

别再犹豫了
新的一年里怎样也该改变作息为自己设定目标前进
毫无目标的活着真的好累人我找不到继续奋斗的理由
放纵自己那么久也是时候够了

还有不到两个礼拜的时间就开学了
成绩何时揭晓我也真的不知道
但却很紧张想知道到底上学期自己的表现如何
最后一个学年了我也该毕业了愿一切都顺利吧
过去的一切就让它逝去吧

尽管我放不下
尽管我被狠狠的伤了痛了难过了
那都是过去的事了
你一遍遍的想着
也就会一遍遍地继续痛着
学会放下遗忘吧
人也活得快乐些

原想趁这个假期好好休息一番
之前老板拨电找我帮忙一个Project我也拒绝了
最后却在妈妈教书的幼儿园帮忙做助教
对着那些孩子们我真的不知该哭呢还是该笑
天真无邪的他们是那么的可爱
但转眼露出那魔鬼一面时真不知该拿他们如何
开学第3天我就全身酸痛了
追着四岁的孩子们到处跑把他们抓回班
面对嚎哭的孩子们挣扎乱踢乱挥手我依旧得紧抱他们安慰他们
还有些孩子爱撒娇总是腻着我不放把我的大腿当椅子坐还不时要抱抱
天啊~抱他们抱得我全身酸痛。今早起床我真的难忍那酸痛感。哈哈
算了吧。其实看着天真无邪的他们童言童语的有时还蛮愉快的。值得吧

这个假期其实也过得蛮充实的
去了中六朋友聚会见到多年不见的他们
每个人都过着不同的生活不同的遭遇
世界就是如此

我还跟中学时期最要好的朋友外出吃个饭闲聊一番
发觉她对事物的看法都很有一套蛮成熟的
喜欢那种感觉,至少在她身上学到不少
算是生活经历吧我迟早也会亲身体验到

妈妈说,我对生活抱着太过天真的态度
老是被父母说我不成熟很幼稚
个人觉得只是有时候吧
偏好于简单的生活
我不爱斗争和耍心计
对于你欺我诈的世界我很反感
只觉得对人是要付出真心才是正确的
努力地做个好人但到最后受伤的却是自己
有时真的很疑惑到底自己该怎么做才是正确
就顺其自然吧我也无能为力了